Saturday, December 25, 2004
i guess i have think thru
i guess i have come out with an ans..
i stay in the middle..
yups..
maybe i wil just let evrything slowly takes it place..
fate or wateva..
i will just take one step at a time..
i wont noe the result
neither would i noe what i will do..
for i have reallyno idea..
i don wanna make a mistake
i don wanna lose the chance..
nither do i wanna history repeat on its own..
reflectin thru..
i really do wonder why things have happen..
but theres nothin i can do now.
i'll just let nature takes its couse.
i hope i have made the right decision..
i hope i did.. cos i don wnna everything to fall apart
i don wana go thru everything again..
thinkin thru the night..
i doubted lots of stuff,,
though i realy donnoe..
but..
i guess.. everything is not for me ta judge..
i gues everything is just apart of my life..
many qns came thru..
one was.. wat was my reaction..
is this dream or nighmare..
is this somethin i wanna it ta happen..
i donnoe,,
it this something taht i can choose..
everything is so confusin..
i hate thinkin thru all this stuff...
it always have no ending to this kind..
its hard.. and i don wanna make the decision..
but .. i noe i have ta...
ta end all this.
buut i really feell i am not worth..
at this time..
when thing arrive to this state,,
iwould always have no courage...
i would always have no strength...
why must this always happen..
at this time..
sometimes.. i guess everthing is nt up ta us
today is christmas.
and nothin really special happen..
was with my neighbou celebratin..
slackin at one corner..
ate log cakes and stuff..
the normal routine i guess..
then went ta roof top to enjoy the breeze..
was really beautiful up there..
chatted and stayed there
so now at home...
have nothin to do..
so decided to blog..
i am lost..
why why why..
i am stuck between two worlds..
let alone ta decide
i wish i can really make a decision..
but i cant..
i donnoe wat ta make..
i am confused...
i don wanna history repeat..
i don wanna..
i don have the confidence in me..
i don have wat it takes..
i am just.....
many questions are goin through my mind now..
i cant answer all..
i cant even ans a single..
urgh!
i am very confused at this very moment..
everything is rushin throough my head ..
i really need an ans..
can anyone ans me...
i nv felt this way in my life before..
why am i not strong at this very moment..
merry xmas to everyone!!
was out with sam, qian wen and shiyuan..
went ta pick seashells for jaggy..
was at pasir ris park..
have ta say there are really some nice seashells out there..
Thursday, December 23, 2004
went for the sec one registration...
everything was ok...
hm.. then done the orientation..
tired and sleepy..
dozed off just now when msging.. haha..
hm.. tml will be out..
+my eyes still hurts..
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
i am now officially broke..
ass.. it feels wireld without a single cent in my wallet..
poor me..
grab some presents..
cos i am alittle short of cash..
so sorry that the presents are alittle simple..
hehe..
tml wil be sec one registratio..
hehe.. really excited ta see the new sec ones..
haha..
ouch!! my eyes hurt now...
wen ta school today for meetin..
then went ta raffles hosp with the excos ta eat..
thats all i did today..
goin out tml ta grab some presents..
brainstorming my head..
i don have any idea wat ta buy for them...
Monday, December 20, 2004
have nt blog these days..
was online but just nothin ta blog so did nt update..
today was one of that day..
nothin special..
nothin exciting..
went ta school for guzheng..
lasted for 3 and a half hour...
tml wil have ta go ta school for excos stuff again..
